And out of all those reasons came the realization: the resistance is on my side sometimes it’s just misguided. They could just do it, whereas for him it was a daily battle.Īnd as soon as I wasn’t trying to hide the resistance, as soon as I let myself talk about it openly, I could think more clearly about why I felt that way, and what was behind that resistance. He was saying he felt resistance, he didn’t know why, and that it seemed like everyone else found sitting down and doing the work a walk in the park. Last week, I was talking to a friend of mine about challenges he was having with a course I run. Yet, I still felt alone with my struggles and, therefore, afraid to really talk about them with anyone else. I learned to accept that this was me, the way I am, and that perhaps I will always find it difficult to sit down and do these things, whether it makes sense or not. Over time, I learned more about self-acceptance. The fact that I was less skipping joyfully to and from these activities and more dragging myself with gritted teeth left me feeling like a fraud, which meant I wanted to do these things even less. I used to think it was just me-that everyone else sat down to these activities with an eager mind and an open heart, especially people who write about these things, like I do, and practice them daily, like I want to. But to get there, it’s a psychological mission. Afterward, I feel great, more in touch with myself and far more at peace. It’s the motivation, the internal debate that starts up every day that I struggle with. It’s not that the activities themselves are hard (although yoga can be intense). Yoga, meditation, journaling: these have all been invaluable tools during my personal journey, yet I have to will, sometimes fight myself in order to do them. I find it hard to do things I know are good for me, harder than anything else in my day-to-day life. With these, you can handle anything.” ~Jack Kornfield “Have respect for yourself, and patience and compassion.

Almost impossible things to do